This month I am writing this letter to our children entry to my two babies. Why? It’s my first letter in this series and November is the perfect month to celebrate both of my babies because Baby E just turned 6 months and Zoe will be 3 at the end of the month.
I don’t even know where to begin. In less than two weeks, you will be 3 years old. That’s 3 years of motherhood under my belt and the rest of my lifetime to go. That’s 3 years of knowing pure and unconditional love. I never thought it possible because there are always conditions to things and although you are not perfect, you are perfect to me. Sometimes I struggle with just how to be your mom. Am I doing enough to show you my love, to teach you about the world and love, to understand who you are as an individual? I’ll always have those questions but when I see you laughing uncontrollable as a child should or hear you say something I didn’t think you even understood or greet me in Spanish, I know that I doing just what you need. And as I see you enjoy discovering things on your own, creating your own stories and enjoying being Zoe, I know that you are destined for greatness. Sure your two soon to be threenager ‘tude gets me but I wouldn’t trade your fierce independence and your strong will for the world. I thank you for teaching me each day about motherhood. And I thank you for being a great big sister to your brother.
Dear Baby E,
6 months ago you came into my life. I still can’t believe it. Never did I expect to be blessed with one much less two babies. You are my second miracle and I can’t imagine life without you. I am amazed at your daily energy. Like seriously, don’t you need a little more sleep? LOL. And you are such a little big guy. I have to step my workouts up because at this rate, how will I keep up with you? You have the most infectious smile. It gets me every single time. Now you are starting your journey to walking. Those first few crawls scared you and guess what? They scared me too. What did I get myself into. One last thing, stop pulling big sister Zoe’s hair today.
My babies, I love you more than anything in this world. God blessed me with you and I promise to love, guide, nurture and protect you. Thank you for choosing me to be your mom.
Read Tilley’s November letter in our circle.