Lately…

Motherhood Lately 

Baby E

Struggling with the continuous sleep issues with Baby E. His lack of sleep despite a schedule, despite trying chamomile tea and black cherry juice, despite cry it out, despite co-sleeping attempts that turn into “toddler parties”, is exhausting. It is also affecting Zoe’s sleep…

Zoe

The emotional regulation that doesn’t exist is my main concern. In all honestly, a part of me has always felt like something isn’t just quite right. It’s exhausting and makes me feel like a failure daily. Is it my lack of understanding or my own emotional handicaps that affect her or affect my ability to breakthrough to her or is it something more. 

We are heading to our pediatrician to discuss where we are and any options for making things better at home that I may not have thought of. Anything for my babies. 

Reading 

The Secret again because I love the principles but I have never completed the book or the practices. 

You are A Badass because I need to get out of my own way. 

Any and every children’s book in our home library. We read about 6-8 books each day. Story time got moved around due to school schedule, etc. but we are back on track and I find that right before bedtime is the best time. The kids and I love it. 

Cooking 

Depends on my mood. Honestly, this should not depend on my mood because meal prep is real and oh so useful but I am trying. 

But I did make traditional Spanish Churros with chocolate dipping sauce for Z’s class. All for their focus country of the month which is Spain. Some say Churros originated in Spain, others say Portugal and yet other’s say Asia. For this month and this deliciousness we are rocking with Spain. 

Business

The reason I am reading The Secret & You are A Badass again. Because here comes yet another holiday season that my children’s book isn’t published. 

Family 

I still dream about our own family neighborhood. Some friends would live there too. I miss those sleepovers at our grandmother’s house. Family picnics and bbqs. Late night sleepover giggles. Big family holidays. Family is everything 

Friendship 

I have some great friends. Like really great. I’ve made an effort to let my friends know how much they mean to me. To thank them for being an ear, giving me a laugh or just going off because I am mad about something. I love my friends. 

Protecting My Peace 

The world seems to be getting uglier and uglier. I basically skip all the news now on tv, online, everywhere. It’s exhausting and I have more than enough emotional work going on so yeah I skip a lot of it.   

Lately in spite of all the ups and downs, I am grateful for life itself and the chance to make each day better than the day before. 

Lately…